First scan, eeeek nervous!

August 22nd 2012, 6 weeks 5 days pregnant,  the first scan is booked for 4:15pm, how on earth am i going to keep sane all day long while waiting for this scan time to finally be here!! Hours seem like days and in those hours every possible scenario is running through my head, i'm overly paranoid having had two miscarriages before my son so i'm thinking what if the baby has no heartbeat? what if there's no baby in there? and if there is, maybe there's twin's....or triplets...or would i be the first New Zealander to have septuplets and be bound to bed and wheelchair for the next few months!? ok, maybe getting a bit carried away there but you get my point.

Finally 3pm hits, the butterflies start fluttering around in my stomach and i reach for the huge 3 glasses of water i must drink before the appointment.

My bladder is bursting and now all i can think about is the heavenly moment i can relieve my bladder of this horrible fullness. 4pm hits, time to make our way to the clinic, there is a bunch of us in the car - me, Sara, her husband Lance, my son & their daughter, my husband unfortunately had to work so couldn't be there but was waiting for my phone call after the scan, all of us except the kids have nail biting nervousness but no-one dares speak of it, instead we all pretend to laugh & make small talk trying to ignore the thoughts we are all thinking until Sara blurts out "OMG i'm sooooo nervous!!" and then the avalanche of nervous comments starts, mostly between Sara and myself, Lance just shakes his head at us.

So we wait in the waiting room eagerly awaiting my name to be called, i'm still thinking of my bladder and that toilet i want to pee in!! A toilet had never looked so good until this moment!
"Amy Dibley???", oh dear we're up! this is the make or break point in this whole journey and strangely enough the thought passes through my head that I'd hate to see that awkward syringe again if this baby hasn't made it, but i try to stay positive thinking all of the nausea and fatigue i've been feeling for the last 2 weeks is positive signs.
The emotionally detached can't crack a smile sonographer leads us to a room, suddenly i feel like i'm walking the Green Mile down this long corridor.
The kids dive straight into the toys while the serious sonographer waste's no time squirting the gel on my belly and puts the ultrasound wand to skin.....all eyes float up to the screen, my uterus appears, then the sac...oh god where is the baby??? oh there it is! wow there's a baby in there!!!!!
The serious sonographer then says "your bladder isn't very full, make sure you drink more next time"....errr wtf lady!? i only feel like i'm going to pee all over this bed at any given moment, my bladder is full i assure you!!!
She presses even harder trying to get a better view and then the tiny little flickering appears, yay! baby has a nice strong heartbeat!

....Oh, and i'm not the first New Zealander to make headlines with septuplets; there's just one healthy baby in there! And his/her's name (for now) is Squirt, it's only fitting for how this baby was made from a syringe! hehe

6 weeks 5 days, hello Squirt!