But we must push aside the exciting talk and submerge our minds into a less exciting topic....lawyers. Argh they're just as bad as real estate agents; you hate using them but you need them and they chow down on your money like a seagull, no chewing - just straight down the throat!
Yes we need lawyers in this journey, they are the ones that sort all the paperwork out for the adoption process, well I thought that's what their sole intentions were but apparently unbeknownst to me I have other intentions. It seems their trained legal minds know me better than I know myself, even though I have known my own self character for the past 27 years and know fully well what I'm capable of, or in this case what I'm not capable of - to them I seem to be a walking talking potential baby stealer.
Apparently once baby is born all I have to do is look at him and I could change my mind and claim him as my own! ummmmm ....in the nicest possible way - I highly 100% doubt it, I already have my hands full, just meet my son Hunter and spend a few days with him, you'll come out of it exhausted and run screaming from my house never to return again...ok he's not that bad (lol), I'm just exaggerating a tad but honestly I do not want another baby in my house for another three years or so, Hunter is enough for now and there is no way I could put that extra effort in to raise him at this age and a newborn....no way!
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Oh sorry! My brain just shut down sleeping while writing that last bit! Was exhausting just thinking about it :-P
Oh and not to mention my husband will be sooooo incredibly supportive with me bringing a baby home that's not mine or his in the first place to raise alongside Hunter, we would live happily ever after! .....yes, that was said with a lot of sarcasm!
So the lawyer wanted to draw up a contract, basically an agreement that I wouldn't become a baby stealer....well I flat out refuse to sign anything of that nature, it disgusts me I can be thought of in that way, I have never received an insult through this surrogacy journey until that moment!!
Luckily Sara and Lance fully support my stubbornness not to sign anything like that, they also have refused any papers be drawn up in that nature.
I can fully agree to it if you were using a friend or if you were using a surrogate through an agency but c'mon! I'm Sara's twin sister, her own flesh and blood and best friend for the last 27 years!
I had to hand my own niece who was stillborn over to my sister who had just come out of surgery and had also lost her uterus and any chance of carrying another child, that was the worst experience of my life!!! no lawyer no matter how many books they've read or how many exams they've sat can ever know the trauma and hardship I went through that night and also the trauma and hardship I watched Sara and Lance go through, so why on earth would I even dare put them through any more heartache!?
Sometimes lawyers need to step out of their robotically trained minds and think a bit more on a realistic personal level.....I guess they are just doing their job, but that doesn't mean I'm not allowed to be offended by some of the things that have arisen from it.
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